Tuesday, May 7, 2013

a copy of a copy of a copy

You may or may not be able to tell, but when I took these pictures the other day, I was headed to school and I hadn't slept in almost 30 hours. 
Mikey's been in Florida, working at his new job (and doing exceptionally well, I must add) for the last month and some change. I've been here in Jersey, finishing up my semester and living with his dad. Most girls can't handle separation from their husbands, I think I do it just fine. But I'm not most girls (and it also helps that he's not in Iraq this time--I admit, I didn't handle 130 days of that so great in the beginning, but that's different--there isn't much of an FPCON level in Fort Myers, Florida). I love my alone time and when I have it, I cherish it by spending a good amount of time thinking, reading, drinking wine, listening to music, taking bubble baths, painting my nails, writing in my journal, and watching a shit ton of Arrested Development (but you already knew that). I have my whole life to spend with Mikey, so there's no sense in me crying everyday that I miss him so much. It goes without saying that I do. But I've also always been abnormally independent. It doesn't mean I don't love as much, I just do it differently I guess. Why am I even saying all this? To show how strong I am? I don't think so. Quite the contrary I suppose. You see at night, that's when everything becomes a bit more challenging. I'm used to Mikey sleeping next to me. I guess in that aspect, I've grown very dependent. In bed with him, I sleep better. Like a baby. Since he's been gone, I haven't had the best sleep. I've been averaging about four hours a night during the week--if I sleep at all--but come the weekend, I can be in bed by nine or ten p.m. and sleep well past noon the next day. (Maybe school is just stressing me the fudge out and that's why I can't sleep during the week? Who knows.) I recently purchased a bottle of "Sleep Aid Maximum Strength" at Target; the lady at the pharmacy counter told me it's really just Benadryl and that she recommends it over Melatonin (which is what I usually take) if you're having honest to goodness trouble sleeping. It obviously works like a dream, but I've been trying not to take it every night, so as to give myself the opportunity to fall asleep naturally. I was godawful tired tonight, so I resisted the sleep aid and what do you know? It's 4:37 in the morning and I have class at 9:55...
If any of you have suffered from this ruthless bitch, Insomnia, and have any remedies that might work, feel free to send them my way. 
Vintage 1950's dress from The Attic in Las Vegas (it was a gift from Mikey on our 1 year anniversary)
Gem stone floral necklace: Anthropologie 2010
Mel by Melissa "Apple" Bow Jelly Sandal (mouthful)


In other news, Spring has finally sprung in New Jersey. It's beautiful, especially on FDU. And oh yeah, I suppose it's been a while since I posted (shocker), so I have new hair. Hiiiii. K bye.

Love, me.

P.s. I start my week long road trip to head south to Florida next Friday after my final exam! I'm making a few pit stops along the way to see some old bffs, my mother-in-law, and maybe meet up with some girls who I adore from IG (I'm spontaneous-and crazy-like that). Can't wait!

22 comments:

  1. Yay you're back! Sleeping alone is crappy, I don't like it either. But you will be Florida-bound soon, so never fear! Does that mean you finish school forever next Friday? Good luck with the exam!

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    1. I wish it meant I was done with school forever! Nope. Still got either a semester or two left. My situation was so much different than other students, since I transferred in with military credits. Bahh! But most of all, I'm gonna miss my school here in New Jersey! :( It's so bittersweet.

      Thank you, my love! I just wanna get these exams ova with!

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  2. Yyyaayyyy finally a new blog for me! Sorry you haven't been sleeping well but you definitely make up for it on the weekends! Not too much longer until you are with Mikey!
    I love that picture of you by the front door!

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    1. I'll make up for it tonight after I see Gatsby, sissy!
      Though, I'm not sure how much sleep I'll get tomorrow night (it's my going away). Then the next day I'm spending the day with Mr. Eulo and Marilyn's family. Then Monday I'm going to spend the day with my friend Ashley...so many people to see with such little time left!

      I'll get sleep when I get to Florida. :)

      I love you!!

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  3. I just found your blog on Modcloth's style gallery and I'm in love with your style! I love how feminine everything you wear is and that you pair it all with such fun accessories. Also, I have an unhealthy obsession with Arrested Development so I automatically love you.

    Definitely following along!

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    1. D'awww thank you, Elana! That's very sweet of you. I wish I could say that it's 'worth it' for you to even follow me, as I don't blog as much as I used to; I just do it when--basically--I feel like it now. Buuut, I'm super happy to have another obsessed Arrested Development fan in my circle! "There are dozens of us!!" :D

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  4. Oh no insomnia sucks! I've never had it that bad but even not being able to get to sleep for an hour or so is so annoying. Hope you get back in a (sleeping) routine soon! And for not having slept, you look amazing in these photos! Love that dress :)

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    1. Thanks, Corrine. It's been like this for the last almost-two months, so I'm fairing along pretty well, I suppose. I mean, at least I don't *literally* look dead. haha I feel like fucking shit though. I get like 15 hours a sleep a night on weekends though, so that's nice. I just get uber stressed with all these last minute papers, and then it doesn't help that I naturally procrastinate. I'm a mess! lol It's my fault. I'll be back to normz when I get to Florida and have my summer vacay! Woot woot.

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  5. Sorry you are having trouble sleeping. I get insomnia occassionally, usually when I am stressed about something and then once I can't sleep I stress about how I can't sleep... and then I can't sleep because my heart goes too fast. I try and get up and read for a little while or play a computer game and then go back to bed after a while. Or even do some random exercise, like hula hooping. I just try to exhaust myself into sleep. However I still haven't really found a solution! I hope it gets sorted out for you.

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    1. Yesss!!! You hit the nail on the head. That's exactly how I am. OMG. Yes.
      I have tried reading books (I do that all the time anyway--almost way too much), having a small (and I mean small) drink of Brandy or something like that, going for three mile runs, etc. The sleep aid pills work the best, however I don't like using them when I'm already going to bed late and I have to be up early; I'm terrified I'll over sleep. So on those nights, which are obviously often, I just stay up. It's brutal, man.
      Good luck to you, too, though. :)

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  6. I have the worst insomnia. My brain goes on overload every night and I can't turn it off. Thankfully, I am pretty good at not running on much sleep, but it is also something I have been looking to get fixed. Benydryl works for me though when I really need to catch some zzz's and my mom bought some herbal sleep pills - I don't remember what they were called but they had a mix of things and they worked alright.

    You look like a babe, sleep or not. I love your new do' and the dress. Have fun on the road trip! Those ladies seem so cool. I follow them on IG and I LOVE their style.

    I am so glad you posted. I have missed you!!!

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    1. I really never thought of myself as "pretty good at not running on much sleep" but these last semesters have proved otherwise. I guess I am good at it after all. I'm just doing it for such an extended period these last two months. It's the longest I've had insomnia before, and I get it fairly often (mostly due to school stress). Anywho, I'll just tough it out this last week, I suppose. I've made it this far! :)
      I heart you, Allison!! ♥

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  7. Good to see you back doll! I would've never been able to tell that you were lacking sleep, you look fab as always and I am loving the hair. I have the opposite of insomnia....it's like I have a shut down button that activates at 11pm every night. It's kinda weird because if I'm out with friends and 11 strikes, I completely shut down and slowly go from 10 to 0(then cranky sets in if I'm not near my bed LOL)

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    1. I know what you mean. It just depends on my mood, but my grandma has been known to kick in at 9 or 10 on a Friday or Saturday night, too. :)
      I miss you! Sorry I've been out of touch and so inconsistent on this thing. Life's been so busy and I practically forgot about this web address. I need to get better. :/

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  8. I feel like that Fight Club quote applies to my life. I am such a huge insomniac and feel like I am dealing with it most of the time. Last time I watched this movie I remember thinking "Yep, I know that feeling."

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    1. I watched FC again the other day and man, there are actually a lot of pretty good/pretty pertinent quotes in that movie as a whole. So many "amens." lol For example, "The stuff you own ends up owning you." I always get chills when Brad Pitt says that. :)

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  9. Absolutely love this outfit! Those bow shoes are perfect and I love the pop of color. Been following you on Instagram for a while now, about time I follow you on Bloglovin as well : )

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  10. Your outfit is soo cute! And your are a tough girl! If I havent sleep in 30 hours, I will look like a panda!

    with love, Cassandra xx
    http://backtofive.blogspot.com

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  11. Hey Girl! Looking cute as ever. LOVE the hair!.......missed our chats terribly... but I'm planning on slowly coming back.
    As you can see by the time of post it is 4:30am and I am surfing the web and checking our blogs. If there is a cure out there it hasn't found me yet or I haven't dreamed of it cuz I'm at my laptop wide awake. My personal best is 42 hours straight but that was with a bit of help from some caffeine...
    Hope to hear from you : Danaslookbook@yahoo.com

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  12. Melatonin helps to knock me out! Take it every night!

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  13. Hey there, loved your blog, just followed you on GFC (181), would you mind to follow back?

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