Let's Rewind 10 years: pt. 9

Look who's up early and off school! That means you get your post early today, weee!
Where are we again?...Ah, 2010. Another lively year.
~For my 26th birthday Mikey and I went out to eat at a yummy steakhouse (I'm addicted to filet mignon) and then we saw the Beatles LOVE Show by Cirque Du Soleil at the Mirage Hotel & Casino. It was an all around amazing time. Jen, I can't remember if you saw this while in Vegas or not, but surely you must as I thought of you during it.

Notice Mikey's stint as a brunette, lol

~Right after my birthday I found out I was pregnant....we were super happy. Every single one of my friends (and of course my family) have always known how badly I want kids. I mean, I know I was wild and crazy, drinking all the time, when I first got to Vegas; I know I've shopped like I'd never run out of money, but I've done everything that I've done because I wasn't a mother yet - because I was only responsible for me. Believe me when I say that if ever I could have traded my lifestyle for being a mom, I'd have done it in a second...I really wanted to be a young mommy. Go figure, the more you want them, the longer you get to wait. I believe in "everything happens for a reason" and I trust in God, that clearly I'll have them when I'm supposed to. Unfortunately I've had more than one miscarriage, and it's really the hardest thing a girl can go through. Harder than divorce, for me. To feel like you have something you've always wanted and you treat your body like there's something in there, caring for it, talking to it, floating on clouds, only to find out a week or so later that it just didn't attach itself the way it was supposed to...I remember conversations with older people, telling them how bad I wanted kids when I was younger; they'd always tell me to "wait" and "live a little"...I've come to think that maybe God is making me live a little, see things, before I have them. Even if I feel like I've done plenty of living. So, I don't know what else to do but be positive and trust that it's for a reason beyond my comprehension. While I wouldn't wish a miscarriage or the inability to have kids on my worst enemy, it's always been a comfort me for to know that I've got friends that share my experiences; it gives shoulders of hope to lean on when one of us has ended up pregnant after years of failed attempts and it simply gives us someone to talk to who can relate. I've since prayed my heart out that I please not ever get pregnant again if I'm going to experience another heartbreak with loss. I want the next time I'm pregnant to result in a baby Roni or Mikey running around.

So, after I miscarried, naturally I was a disaster. Sad. Crying. Quiet. I wanted the presence of a baby in the house in some form; I wanted to hold something cute and tiny. So I asked Mikey if we could go look at puppies. One look at Bowie and I wanted him to come home with us. He made me happy....and then once I'd gotten over my sad state, I was like "OMG why did I make us get another dog?!" Haha :) Oh, Bowie, he can be a carpet-ruining, new recliner chewing, clueless little ball of fur, but I love him, and every now and then I look at him and remember how much I needed him when we got him. 

~April: I took a crack at being a hair and [crazy] makeup model + runway for the super fabulous & famous hairstylist, Oribe. The show was held at the Palms Hotel & Casino. I did it with my friend Brandi and we had a blast. I found out just how shy I really am and how big of a bust it would have been to fulfill a child dream of becoming a model. Definitely not for me! But the $100 worth of free Oribe hair products & $100 cash was a nice payment for 8 hours of work/play. 

me & Oribe! 

~July: I was starting to out-process the military. My 2nd enlistment in the Air Force was coming to an end. We had our going away party and said goodbye to some of the best people we'd ever known. I cried A LOT. The military brought so many things to my life. Discipline. Responsibility. Travel. Change. But best of all, friendship...family. It was such a fun ride and I'm so glad I did it. I spent almost 8 years of my life wearing a uniform that represented something that will forever make me proud when I look back on it. 

Two quotes that I remember using in association with looking at all these pictures of our goodbye:

"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."-if anyone knows who said this, please let me know. I can't seem to remember or find it. 

"Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes."- Henry David Thoreau

~August: We left Vegas and did a loooong road trip. We went from Vegas to Texas, Texas to North Carolina, North Carolina to Jersey. The whole thing took about 3 weeks as we stayed with both our mothers along the way. 

~October: We'd been living in Jersey for all of two months and already I was sad almost everyday without having friends around. I decided to fly to Tennessee for two weeks and have some girl time with Paige. 

Also this month, one of my best girlfriends from Vegas, Laura, came to Jersey to spend Halloween with us. 

~November: Chappie came out to visit me in Jersey! 

~December: Jen came out to visit me! I hadn't seen her in 5, almost 6 years by this time! It was Christmas time in NY and we had so much fun running around 5th Ave and Rockefeller Center, dancing with Santa in the street. 

2010 had so many tear inducing moments, it was such an emotional year all around, but a great one nonetheless. 

Hooray for blogging before midnight! Just think, y'all only have to read one more novel by yours truly. :) 

Love,

Roni